In a few hours, it will be exactly 4 years and a month since I said yes to this awesome guy. 4 years and this guy can still make me feel giddy. We went through a lot. We went through things that we never thought we’d face. But I’m glad we made it. I’m glad that we’re still together and stronger. I’m glad I’ve met someone who loves me and accepts my flaws, someone who tells me I’m weird but is weirder than me. I feel loved and blessed. We may have fight sometimes (or most of the time) but you’re still my bestfriend. That didn’t make sense. Hahahaha. Thank you for everything. I am looking forward to our future (hopefully) together! I love you!
by Jamie Varon
The first time you hang out together in silence and it’s super comfortable and they’re on their laptop next to you while you’re catching up on the latest episode of Parks & Rec and you’re just like, this is good, we’re good, and the fact that I don’t feel obligated to talk or entertain or come up with shit to talk about is my everything right now.
The first time you realize that, whoa, you like this person so much more than you ever liked anyone else before, even though they get on your nerves and make you absolutely insane and can get super moody — but you also realize that here in this moment, there’s no one else you’d rather fight with and that’s really cool.
The first time you are completely naked with each other and you don’t feel insecure even a little bit, you’re just like, well, here’s my body and there’s your body, let’s smush them together for a while in the middle of the day, not under the covers, just right in the sunlight, imperfections and whatever else and you’re all, wow, that’s freeing as fuck.
The first time you realize that you’re more yourself with this person than anyone else, even your best friend, which then sends you into an identity crisis, because this person has totally accepted you exactly as you are and you didn’t even realize it until you did that weird single person behavior in front of them and they shrugged it off and said, meh, wanna cook dinner?
The first time you tell them your biggest, darkest secret and they listen and kiss you on the cheek and say thank you for telling them and you’re all, wait, why was I so worried about telling them that? And you think, our relationship just got to a new level of deep because they know that part of me and still love me, maybe even they love me more after knowing and that’s pretty awesome.
The first time you spend a week apart and you are so happy that you miss them, but the very act of missing them isn’t ruining your life like it has with other people and you’re all, healthy relationship achievement unlocked! And then you see them after a week and you have the kind of sex you can only have after realizing you’re in a really healthy, loving relationship with someone you can’t wait to get home to ravage.
The first time you look at them and think, if I was going to promise something as crazy as forever, I’d promise it with you, and you’re like, wow, I get how people decide to get married, because this person actually makes me believe in that forever kind of love that people have been writing sappy poetry about for ages.
The first time you realize that you know this person so well it’s almost as if they are an extension of you, like you know exactly what they’ll order at any restaurant, how they’ll most likely respond to any of your questions, and what their daily routine is. It would be super fucking creepy if it wasn’t actually so adorable.
The first time you’re tempted by someone else, and they’re very good looking, but then you realize that what you have is once in a lifetime and you wouldn’t dare waste that and, while it takes some serious effort and self-control, you put all that energy into making your relationship better — and lo and behold, it does get better. Self win!
The first time you realize that you are with someone that loves you as much as you love them, and you’re all, holy shit, that’s never happened before and you point that out to your significant other and you both high-five and order a pizza
I love being around you. All it takes is a simple smile or embrace and I feel whole again. Thank-you for always being there, unconditionally loving me through highs, through lows. It’s been so long and the connection we share continues to burn brightly. Your light trumps all darkness. You’re my home, I know it.
â€” (via shyieesolove)
Red Velvet Cupcake!!
I wasn’t planning on buying one though I am craving for a cupcake for days but there was a free taste and this one’s too good not to buy. I was glad Pao let me buy one. Hihi.
I am now officially unemployed. Kidding aside. I’m so happy that I already graduated in college. No more thesis, research paper, exams, reports and other school related stuff. Up until now, everything seems surreal. I still can’t believe that I survived 14 years of studying. I survived all those sleepless nights, cramming, staying up all night reviewing for an exam and worrying about my grades.
That day was special to me. But what makes it more special is that my family was there to see me accept my diploma. That day marks the start of new chapter in my life.
Only one left. Hihi. In the span of 4 years, these were all checked out. I feel so lucky. *londeh*
I grew up to be, not to brag about it, the good girl that my parents wanted me to be. I excelled academically. Every year I end up with honors. I follow every rule that they set. Maybe because I was still innocent at that time or maybe I had no choice. I will always do the things that they want me to do. I grew up to the thinking that I have to strive harder and excel academically to please my parents. It was etched in my mind that the grades were the basis of once intelligence.
But as my understanding grow broader, I realized that I am starting to feel unhappy. Not because I am not happy with my family but I am starting to realize that I am living under a shadow. Not only my parents, but also myself, gave pressure to me. The thoughts of failing and not pleasing my parents scared. It went all in my head and no wonder affected me big time.
It is not only the pressure which made my student days harder but also the comparison between me and the children that my parents know. It was heart breaking every time I achieve something. I would go home and tell my mother about my high score in an exam and she would only reply, “Si *insert name here* ilan nakuha?” (What’s *insert name here*’s score?) instead of “Naks ang galing naman ng anak ko.”. That couldv’e made me strive harder. Comparison will always be there. It’s like I have to compete with some certain people and be better than them to make my parents proud. I always try hard to make them proud of me which made me think that whatever I do will always be a competition with others.
It was only that one time that made me really, really happy. It was when I graduated with honors during our 2nd year graduation in college. With honors is equivalent to Cum Laude. Our course has two graduations, one on our 2nd year and the other one during 4th year. I immediately texxted my father and he responded, ” I am proud of you anak. Lab u.” that was his exact text message. I couldn’t help but cry because for another moment there I knew that my Dad was proud of me. That was the feeling I’ve been craving for after all the disappointments that I have given them.
He’s the person responsible for making every day of my life a whole lot better. He’s a bestfriend and boyfriend all wrap in one. See how lucky I am. I am thankful to have a movie buddy, pig out buddy and a life partner like him.
Sometimes we have to make some sacrifices in order to be successful. We have to leave other things behind and move on. Life will always give us something better, if not today then maybe tomorrow. We have to keep moving forward so we won’t get left behind.
If we ever fail, we must learn for it. We must learn for it, use it as motivation to do other things. Failure does not mean you are not good enough, it only means that you gave your best but still have something to learn. One must always have a room for change and improvement.
Life will always surprise us. It will not be always on our side but it will give us something that will makes us better.